Let go Tucson!!

Last night's dream began down in Tucson, Arizona... For those who don't know where it is, it's about an hour and a half South of Phoenix, Arizona. I had gone down there for some random party at a friends house. Sunday finally arrived and I had planned on wandering home sometime in the early afternoon. Unfortunately, every time I tried to hop in the car and head back, someone would prevent me from driving off... Either because I had forgotten something or they needed me to bring an item back to Phoenix for them. I remember being incredibly aggravated since I wanted to be gone already but continued to be stalled and finally acquired another passenger. It was actually a friend of mine from Dallas and she seemed to be the only person in the dream that wasn't irritating the hell out of me. I was moody none the less and apologized to her for my short temper. There was this guy in the dream who would continuously give me orders trying to boss my around. I wasn't surprised to see him as a form of authority given our past in real life. Long story short, him and I do not see eye to eye whatsoever and tend to avoid one another when we find ourselves in the same vicinity. Blah he makes me mad. lol

I was supposed to drop all of this stuff at some lake about 45 minutes North of Phoenix so not only was I aggravated I was late on heading out, but I had to drive an additional 45 minutes to empty the contents of my bright yellow car. Finally, after what seemed like another "hour" in my dream, I was ready to head out with a car full of random clothes, a good friend and my old roommates cat (WTF?).

I was having a bit of trouble sleeping so I woke up right as we took off from Tucson... I wonder what I would have found at the lake!

Dream within a Dream - A Waking Life Moment

Have you ever seen the movie, Waking Life? It's basically about a young man who continues waking up in a dream within a dream gaining lessons about the universe and life itself. It's actually incredibly well written and informative so if you haven't seen it... I recommend checking it out!

Anyways, the dream I had last night was a direct copy of what was going on during the movie. I kept waking up in a dream within a dream. I would wander around endlessly trying to figure out the point of it all by talking to any random person I came in contact with but all I got in return was a philosophical outlook on life. I would ask questions, how, why, what's all this about?? Never getting a straight answer in return. This went on throughout the entire dream until my alarm clock went off this morning.

Unfortunately, I do not remember any specific vocabulary so it's difficult for me to gauge what it all means. There weren't any apparent symbols or words that stood out. Boo.

Chased by a Pterodactyl

Say what?? Yup... you know, those crazy huge flying reptiles who reigned over the skies millions of years ago? If you have never had the chance to get up close and personal with the skeleton of a pterodactyl, I would highly recommend finding a museum or a place with one on display. They're incredibly impressive and I can't even imagine standing next to one when they were alive. HUUUUUGGGGEEEE

Anyways... on to my dream!

An old friend of mine, Whitney and I, decided to go hiking deep within these beautiful woods one early afternoon. During our wanderings we came upon a huge skeleton of an ancient pterodactyl. After examining the large flying reptile for a few moments we decided to head off in another direction. As we were walking away, the skeleton came to life and began towards us. Of course we ran like hell and came upon a giant quad in the middle of the woods. Perfecto! With the pterodactyl close on our heels we hopped on the quad and went for it. I was driving with Whitney on the back keeping tabs on where the skeleton was. We finally made it back into town and found shelter in a large warehouse.

The scene changed and I found myself in the middle of a wedding reception area. I recognized the only other man there as a direct competitor of the catering business Whitney and I ran (in the dream of course). I felt an incredibly negative vibe coming off of him and decided to figure out what was going on so I asked him. He was surprised to see me alive and said I was lucky to have survived the "wrath of his power" (lolz) and went on to tell me how he was trying to make Whitney and I disappear so he could take over all of our business. Unfortunately, or fortunately, my alarm went off after this.

The second part of the dream doesn't make any sense to me but the whole being chased by a big ass hungry dinosaur does relate to my waking life in some form or another. Being chased by a dinosaur stems from a fearfulness of being useless or no longer needed which pretty much hit's the nail right on the head. I've been feeling this way for a couple of weeks now. I don't think I am going to go into detail here just because I may get myself into a little trouble if I dig into it so I'll leave it at that.

Slower Traffic, Keep Right

I have noticed an interesting trend in the dreams I've had recently. I've been incredibly lethargic, slow moving and sometimes asleep during certain parts of dreams. This got me thinking; what does this mean since the majority of scenes in these dreams do not make sense what so ever. Everything is so abstract and forever changing, pushing me to focus on how I actually FEEL during these dreams rather than whats going on around me.

So what does this sluggish tendency I have been having actually mean??

According to dreammoods.com and a few various other sources (friends, own knowledge, random dream books I have)... there are several things to think about. To make this easier, I will tear it down into specific instances within a dream and what I was feeling at that time.

1) My older sister, two others and myself were on our way to some tackle shop/liquor store (weird combo I know). They were constantly having to slow down and even stop to wait up for me. I kept feeling incredibly exhausted and could barely keep up with them. All I wanted to do was sleep and no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't get my body to move any quicker. If you feel tired in your dream, it is supposed to suggest how I really feel in my waking life; emotionally drained and stressed.

2) My co-worker was getting married at my mothers house. I fell asleep before the ceremony began and accidentally slept through the whole thing. Upon waking up in my dream, I still felt sleepy and had a hard time moving around, almost like I was moving in slow motion. Several emotions stem from this as I was ASLEEP in my dream, SLEEPY and MOVING IN SLOW MOTION.

To dream you are sleeping can suggest a peace of mind but it could also mean I am ignorant of the conditions around me, which I was in the dream, but what of my waking life? This also goes along with death; pushing for renewal and/or a new beginning. The sleepiness in my dream is telling me I am letting an opportunity pass me by but I could be missing some important information I need in order to make a decision. Last but not least, to dream I am moving in slow motion implies I have a feeling of anxiousness, powerless or frustration. I may be going through some tough issues that are causing stress, giving me a feeling of immobilization.

Now that I've laid it out... I have a better understanding of what my dreams are actually trying to tell me. I've been thinking about making a life-changing decision the last couple of months on whether I should join the military or not. Weighing the pros and cons, talking to those in the military or have been before, benefits and what I need to do in order to be ready for this... Aaaand I just don't think I am ready to make the decision right now, which in turn is causing me a bit of frustration since I'm technically running out of time (more on this later). Luckily, I have another six months or so before I really need to make up my mind sooooo hopefully learning my stress because of this is causing me to dream this nonsense, I will be a little more aware of my feelings on the situation.